Hello there blogworld! I don’t even know what to say here anymore, seems like. I don’t have pictures of my knitting in progress at the moment and I am not sure what pretty Flickr pictures I might share. In fact my picture taking has been at a low.
Though, honestly, I personally have been at a low, and the blog world has not been as much of a joy as it used to be. I love writing and I can’t imagine not doing that, but I have not been participating as much as I used to, and I don’t know what to do to get my brain back in order with blogging. I know I need to keep writing. I’m just not entirely sure how.
I started a new job a few weeks ago and it’s taking a lot out of me. If I do well right now I get promoted into management and start to learn about how to train people, which is something similar to what I’ve done with volunteer projects in the past and so I thought I could get good at this. It’s frustrating, though, and I’m disappointed in myself so far, and I wish I were doing better at the beginning. It’s not my dream job, I’m noticing right off the bat. I’m realizing that I would have been better suited to a project coordinator role, but this is what I could get right now. It will be good experience to look back on.
It is taking up a lot of time and energy, though, and I’m complaining about it to people. Taking the first steps of adulthood without a lot of older, wiser support? The thing I wish most right now is to have someone who’s been through this before who I could talk to, face to face, and get a hug from. Someone to tell me it’s all going to be okay. My friends my age tell me that, and I believe them, but it would be great to hear someone’s stories of how it gets better.
Well. Sigh. We moved servers and WordPress is finally working all fine and dandy, so I’m hoping to be around here more!
I know the feeling. I feel perpetually swamped these days, emotionally if nothing else, and so drained from work. Hence a lot of random cameraphone pics and not that much by way of exciting projects.
The key for me to get through the slump has been, make sure I at least post once a week. That keeps me in the regular habit, and I just put up whatever random photos have collected on my phone over the week. It also means I have even something little to say.
Most people start new jobs with a learning curve. Don’t beat yourself up about it.
I think we all know the feeling. It will get better, it really will. Even if the job stays the same, you’ll gain expertise and experience and things have a better chance of running (more) smoothly. It just takes time. So hang in there. And congratulations on getting a job! That, right there, is exciting!
This is refreshingly honest, Stephanie. Thanks for sharing. I think periods of uncertainty (or just plain “blah”) are normal and unavoidable. I’ve had several jobs that I didn’t love but I knew they were a means to an end. I agree with Katie M. “Even if the job stays the same, you’ll gain expertise. . .” Plus as a writer, every situation lends itself to writing. Even if it’s not happening at the moment–this may be the foundation of a great story/essay someday.