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sunbeamj
Friday, January 15th, 2010
The new year doesn’t really start for me until my birthday (Jan. 26), so let’s say I wrote this in plenty of time. ;) It’s not really 2010 I’m concerned about but being 21. What will being a whole year older make me feel? And how do I want to embrace the changes of becoming an adult? Particularly considering how out-of-place I feel, now that people will start to recognize me as an adult instead of a child. I don’t at all feel ready for the responsibilities of the adult world; I just feel like I’m being thrown in it. Time to sit, reflect, and plan.
My knitting resolutions for the year, prompted by recent knitting-related epiphanies I’ve had:
- Knit more often.
aka Don’t be afraid to take the time to step back from what I’m doing and untangle a problem, aka Don’t freak out and try to ‘abstain’ from knitting when it’s all I can think about and I’m ’supposed’ to be studying. If all I can think about is knitting, I will save myself quite a lot of anguish if I knit for 15 minutes and soothe my mind instead of staying agitated about it for the next three hours. Also, too often I meaninglessly browse the Internet when I think I ’should’ be studying but all I’m thinking about is knitting. I’m wasting more time, not less, by doing that. So: knit more often and knit every day. - Don’t be afraid to start over.
I’m knitting more anyway, so it’s not going to matter that much if a project is not going according to my plans and I have to rip it out. - Relax. After all, that’s why I’m knitting in the first place.
It’s not more intense because, well, I’m not that intense. My biggest goals for my 21st year are to grow socially and spiritually and have a Happiness Project, and maybe get a job for once. I’d love to learn to read Tarot, to draw, to write a novel, to write poetry, to read more Good Literature, etc. etc., but right now, what’s important in my life is that I cope better with dealing with other people, and not through the Internet. Because of that, I won’t set my expectations very high on anything else. It’s all waited this long, I think it can some time longer.
However, in the spirit of Knitting More, I’ve been re-organizing my Ravelry queue. I hope they keep the Wishlist feature! I like it. The possibility of someone sending me a pattern I’d like? Awesome. The possibility of sending people patterns as a surprise? Excellent! So hey, if you want to send me a birthday present, I have a few patterns on my own wishlist… and I suppose I’ll do a little more re-organizing and figure out what I really want to knit, what will really fit my style, and what I want to knit next. But first I have to pick my brother up from school. Happy knitting!
Tags: resolutions
Wishlist feature? I didn’t know about that! I must check it out!
I don’t think there’s a starting line – numeric or otherwise for adulthood – if there were, most adults would, by virture of their ages have to behave very differently than they do.
Adulthood is self awareness and living a purposeful life. Whatever that life looks like or contains. Just reading your 2010 knitting goals it sounds to me like you are well on your way!
Do you have a good tarot deck to learn on? I find that is very helpful – if you don’t like the cards, you won’t be as into it. I’ll have to have a look at the wishlist feature.
Sounds like you have really good goals for this year – I need to work on #3 myself!